Monday, January 26, 2009

Let’s get back in line again and ride the big one

I don’t wanna fall, I don’t wanna fly
I don’t wanna be dangled over
The edge of a dying romance
But I don’t wanna stop
I don’t wanna lie
I don’t wanna believe it’s over
I just wanna stay with you tonight

~ Matt Alber, "End of the World" [via JMG]


I feel so paralyzed that sometimes it's like being psychically entombed in concrete. I wish I knew where I was going — or even if I'm not going anywhere I wish I felt at least somewhat content (as I once did, I think) in the place where I am. The debt's not quite "de Maupassantian," the disease isn't debilitating... but both seem like tremendous weights that can only keep pulling me down. I'm a little bit sick and a lot tired.

I know, I know: it's all about "reframing."

Oh well. As the cheeky t-shirt maxim goes: "I Love My Attitude Problem"


Ladrón de Basura (a.k.a. Junk Thief) said...

I've been following this video in the various places it's been showing up. The Rufus Wainwright comparisons are inevitable, but he's not quite as precious nor (ultimately)annoying. I like the fact that it has a nice dustiness and unease about it. I'm not sure I want to buy into getting in line or the big one. Though at least I've moved on to saying those things are futile or never to be again. It's just that they're not priorities right now.

Salty Miss Jill said...

Joe-remember to breathe. :)

BigAssBelle said...

i think life's like that. some crusty old badger in AA used to tell me "little girl, if a door closes, another's gonna open, but the time you wander in the hallway's a real goddam bitch." might you be in one of those hallways? i'm still behind a move back to NJ.

Stephen said...

I caught the video, for the first time, while passing through our TV room while it was playing on LOGO.
I thought it was the most beautiful video I had ever seen. I had to lie down. I listened to the song, on my Ipod, while riding the MAX train home in the snow...I listened to it 7 times in a row & cried. I find the song beautiful, but devestating.
He is a real talent.